Dim lights, cool breeze--- the scent of the noisy pine needles.
It's about one moment, that I am about to close--- and there are a lot of plans that I am really looking forward of pursuing. Browsing back, i must admit that I've gone through a lot of misadventures, cried a million tears when I realized I've gained nothing but frustration--- (my bad though) however with these frustrations and miscalculated mistakes when it comes to decision making I have realized that I am not really getting any younger. It's high time to leave the comfort zone--- it's about time to start anew---
People really come and go, yes i have let go of a lot of people; but wherever they are right now;
I do believe that I have left important mark in their lives---
Of course; there are a lot of reasons why I need to let go of them---
They are not mine, they have lives to live; I have my own---
haysh--- hush.
I am just so weak to understand that before.
Few more days, few more months I don't really have a concrete idea on how to spend it; I really wanted to go to Singapore. My mom has already permitted me, but I am also thinking of going back to school---
I think PLAY and PARTIES have to take their backseats
I need to spend my life a little more serious--- i need to think about my career.
I remembered one friend asking me, "at the end of the day; what would you really want to do?"
And i cannot give him an answer.
My answer to that is anything goes; as long as it can sustain me--- my happiness. I am a person who gets contented easily is that a fault? Yeah I wanted to practice journalism but I would want to take the lighter side---
In other words, where would the wind take me? shhhh....
I'll try to find me--- I'll try to find some answers soon I'll try to---
There's this one person who told me to change, I live with a lot of anxieties---
It's true---
without further explanation, I want to say hello and goodbye to this thing...
I would want to cling to the hopes of "come what may"
I am ready to take some risks---
I am not scared anymore to take my (own) way.
I've got to--- I just need few preparations.
time is futile---
at the end of the day (january 6)
I have realized that I want more, I need to take risk--- I don't need to get scared--- if I fall again; I need to keep going I don't need to take any mask to cover me up--- I'm sick and tired of hiding; I love some people too much that I cannot really just say simple goodbye===
It's already a cycle for me to feel this way.
and I don't get it.
this is just one of the things that I keep in my pandora's box of emotions.
Again, at this time i am sitting comfortably, I cannot sleep; my class will start at 8:20am.
and another day has started---
